3

Symbols give us the ability to reconcile opposites as well as utilize something that points to a transcendent reality, which in turn, can assist in the process of unveiling the unconscious mind and expanding our sense of self. When we look at a symbol of say a cross, it means many things to many people, the trinity perhaps, pain and oppression, the death of Christ, or an entire set of values and religious affiliation. Not only can the cross hold these types of meanings, but personal meaning as well as maybe a tie into memory and experiences that we have had. It is the transcendence of symbols which Carl G. Jung felt to be of such value to individuals on their quest for wholeness or individuation (as Jung referred to the process of achieving a state of balance). Think about how many meanings something such as the cross really does have, and to even deepen this all further, think of all the meanings that this symbol has taken on throughout time! It is really quite amazing and we can use this knowledge to begin to understand parts of our lives or what the universe or psyche is trying to show us exists.

For myself, the number 3 seems to be coming up for me lately. I see this as a correspondence with the 3rd Chakra in my case through the process of self-inquiry. The Chakra system can be likened to 7 centers of energy and awareness that is held in the body. It has been around for thousands of years and is not as some ignorant people like to pretend “new Age.” The 3rd chakra sits around the navel and corresponds to the stomach and parts of the digestive system. Within the 3rd chakra is held: willpower, self-confidence, self-development, self-control, feelings, sensitivity and most important Power. One symbol of this chakra is the triangle (surprise, surprise) and the element it is likened to is fire. Manipura (meaning “shinning jewel”) is the Sanskrit name for this chakra and you can imagine the issues that crop up if we are in excess or deficient by looking at what it holds. The third chakra is considered to be rich in energy and is traditionally portrayed in gold and yellow colors which are two colors which I have not connected with myself for a while now. As we can reflect on personal power, it is something that I have had great struggles with in my own life for many reasons (see my post In Progress if you are interested). In accordance with any symbols in my life that crop up they are everywhere; in receipts, photos, lines, art, everything that I involve myself in. So here is one of many symbols that my own psyche is throwing at me to heed the call of the 3rd Chakra. Enjoy and reflect on symbolism in your own life, as it is always there, you just need to wake up and see it!

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Flowers

So I have apparently lapsed yet again in the blogging area. I have in turn finally found an office in Downtown Lethbridge to which I have now painted and also turned an adjacent room into a studio of sorts. Looks pretty good at the moment a few more things and Im good to go. Just to find some clients now…Marketing is really not my thing, but I suppose I will have to learn pretty quick here. And on that note. Here are the flowers (again, go to the flickr icon at the top right if you would like to see them larger):

Right Handed

So I am predominantly right-handed, but do a lot of things left-handed as well. And am very right-brained as well – anyone who knows me or has read through some of this blog can figure out the right-brained bit. Right brained individuals are said to be more creative, which I can attest to, but can also be a way for ADHD to manifest in an individual. Thats sort of me in a nut shell, lots of great ideas and creative ability, but lose focus pretty fast on most things. My brain chemistry is a little different from most because of this whole right-handed/left-handed bit as well. There is a clinical name for how my mind is set up, but of course I can not remember what it is. The only reason that I even know about it all is that a good friend of mine, who is set up with the same right/left weirdo anomaly that I have, was tested for some reason and told me all about it. Funny too because we are both very alike in many, many ways.

Anyway, I am right-handed but golf, bat, shoot (in hockey), and do most things like this left-handed. That is the whole thing of it. But here are a few shots that I have taken lately to illustrate different points. The interpretation is always up to the viewer, although some may strongly disagree, but this is the reality…we all walk around with our own ideas, and ways in which to see the world. My right hand…

Oh yea, the tattoo on my thumb was done in NYC in 2003 as a momento of the whole experience. I knew it wouldnt stay, stay on my thumb; and have had it gone over probably 4-5 times since. It is there but is fading for sure, as all tattoos do over time.

The larger tattoo over my wrist is three parts. The top 1/2 says “Nowhere to go” Meaning this moment is all we have so we may as well just relax into it, amoung many other meanings which I will not write about now. This is a Zen ideal. Along the side (right side of wrist) is a small lotus. If you dont get the lotus symbolism look it up. “At home in the muddy water” is a good analogy for life and the peaceful warrior. and on the bottom of my wrist is the Buddha’s eyes in a meditative like state. Blue highlights all over the entire piece. Anyway…

Been a Crazy Long Time!

It has been a while so I thought I would just throw up a few photos, just cause…Enjoy.

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The Suchness of Reality

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  I uploaded this painting a while ago and it just sits in the side bar in “drafts” cause I dont know why exactly I uploaded it so I thought I would use it first. This used to be my favorite painting (that I have painted) as it seems to convey a certain mood.

 

 I had moved to Kimberly B.C to do a practicum (2006) and was spending alot of time alone, writing and painting and just doing those kinds of things. I started to really witness the universal reality of sadness and the absolute connection with all around me. It was an interesting time in my life. I was overcome with intense feelings of sadness almost all the time for a period. It was a very transformational experience.

The whole thing of it is just the reality of existence, things fade in and out of existence and we are faced with life and death everywhere we look, it is only a matter of opening our hearts and our minds to what else is going on around us. We need only begin to move a little away from our egoic existence in order to begin to witness the world – and our own egos – in a different way. We are terrified as individuals to really embrace sadness, but sadness and emotional intensity does not have to be something to fear. As we look further intraspectively through contemplation,  meditation, and yoga (I also use art for meditative and reflective purposes) we the grip of the ego begins to loosen and provide a newfound freedom that we never thought was possible. I will quote the Heart Sutra here as it gives such a great description of this;

            O Shariputra, form is no other than emptiness,

            Emptiness no other than form;

            Form is precisely emptiness,

            Emptiness is precisely form.

            Sensation, perception, reaction, and consciousness are also like this.

            O Shariputra, all things are expressions of emptiness:

            Not born, not destroyed; not stained, not pure; neither waxing nor waning 

 

 

This is a great conversation between the Buddha and one of his students. I feel that the Sutra really speaks volumes to challenge what we think we know about everything around us. Another quote I did want to include and comment on is in regards to therapy (as a therapist). This quote is from Mark Epstein who is a Buddhist psychiatrist out of  New York:

 The traditional view of therapy as building up the self simply does not do justice to what we actually seek from the therapeutic process. We are looking for a way to feel more real, but we do not realize that to feel more real we have to push ourselves further into the unknown.

Such a great quote to give us a new perspective on things when we are looking at life and especially the internal verses the external reality. As we look outside of our “selves” and build our “selves” up more and more we begin distance from the consciousness that we are. To feel “more real” as Epstein says, one must begin to look at the structure of “self” itself, and deconstruct certain “fixations” and “illusions” through the process of what many others  call inquiry. As Maharshi states; “Self-inquiry is to focus the entire mind at its source. It is not, therefore, a case of one ‘I’ searching for another ‘I.’ 

 

So to start simply take up the contemplative practice of “who am I?” It is not just a thought “who am I?” It is a contemplation on “who am I?”  Not thinking about it, contemplating it. Similar to a Zen koan in which it is a question that may take the practitioner years to answer, or realize that there is no answer, the self-inquiry of “who am I?” is a long deconstructive process by which we can begin to know Self/consciousness. Enjoy…

 

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HDR Frenzy

Cemetary Gate HDR

The last couple days, the sun has decided to come out to say hello, so I decided to go and greet this wonderful entity. The interesting part of it all was, the sun decided to play hide and go seek all day long. The lighting changed drastically from moment to moment, a lot like life. Nothing remains stagnant, only movement, death and rebirth. So I spent the afternoon in a cemetery. What a beautiful place to go. The trees all have so much character and depth, while even situated off a busy road (although the other side backs onto the huge coolie in Lethbridge) it was silent. Giving me lots of time to reflect and appreciate the interconnectedness of life and death, family and attachments. There is so much wisdom that can radiate from a tree. I think that we can learn so much from a tree when it all comes down to it. When a storm comes, they just go with the flow, roots grounded and balanced. Not trying to resist what is.

 

I want to face life like a tree…Tree in a Puddle

So this shot up top is one of the few that I took for an HDR. Then I thought I would try to unwrap it all in photomatrix as well. Quite happy with this shot here as well….

Psychedellic tree

Also did a decided to take my orange cokin filter to see what it could do with HDR, the orange filter seems to pick up very well when it is a little bit cloudy or has that grey lighting outside; which was the case when I took the shot. Its a little weird, but it is what it is.

Walkway to everyones fate

And last but not least, I ripped home after the cemetary in the afternoon grabbed some food and when out to an area I have never been before that is a few minutes away from my house. The colors were sort of muted, so I thought that I would also have the HDR reflect that, it sort of fades in and out of color and is really surreal. I posted a bunch more shots on flickr, if you are interested as well as these shots in full size.  Please enjoy and comment if you like it or hate it or what, I am good either way.

Going Southwest

 

 

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