Testing out the 85

Since every once in a while we need to take some time out for ourselves and without the time to process or post photos, I have taken a little time today to do so. Also thanks to my brother-in-law I was able to borrow  his 85mm Nikon 1.8 which is a nice little prime I have used in the past. Here are a few shots I took a couple of weeks ago that I just posted on Flickr and will post here as well…Enjoy, and there is a ton of stuff to go through in the next while so look forward to some more macro, abstract, darkness and light painting coming your way in the near future!

Meeting the Shadow

I have recently been teaching a class entitled Creative Arts & Self-Inquiry which focuses on the testing of reality from various theoretical orientations and understandings as well as an inquiry into the Self. Using Jung as a jump off point and bringing in Neo-Jungian concepts has been a return to the shadow for myself as the universe always seems to have an interesting way of throwing things back your way.

Hate and rage is something that most of us deal with at one point or another in our lives. And to look at the state of society these days one can see that there really is not much hope in looking to others unless we are able to look into our Selves and reconcile some of the opposing forces in which we deny or run from. Jung explains this as our persona (our public face), which is essentially a compromise between you and the world. For example; as a student you may receive a low mark and be enraged at you low mark; you approach your instructor and repress the anger and rage as you know that it is not socially acceptable to release your anger on someone in that context and would probably be concerned that you may get yourself into trouble. Where do you think all that anger goes if it is not released? Into the shadow that holds all our unwanted emotions and parts of our personality, which is held in the unconscious.

Art is a great way to release the shadow, or at least begin to accept and befriend it. As we begin to touch the dark seedy part of us all, we begin to expand our sense of personality and thus can understand that we are a sum of our parts, not just one aspect as we tend to believe. This assists in having a wider view of ourselves and the world around us as we can see that so much of our struggle and strive in life is by our own creation.

Below is a shot that I did after an intense session of writing, drawing, and painting in which I feel really brings this concept to life – feeling an intense distaste the entire time.  It speaks for itself.

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Flowers

So I have apparently lapsed yet again in the blogging area. I have in turn finally found an office in Downtown Lethbridge to which I have now painted and also turned an adjacent room into a studio of sorts. Looks pretty good at the moment a few more things and Im good to go. Just to find some clients now…Marketing is really not my thing, but I suppose I will have to learn pretty quick here. And on that note. Here are the flowers (again, go to the flickr icon at the top right if you would like to see them larger):

Right Handed

So I am predominantly right-handed, but do a lot of things left-handed as well. And am very right-brained as well – anyone who knows me or has read through some of this blog can figure out the right-brained bit. Right brained individuals are said to be more creative, which I can attest to, but can also be a way for ADHD to manifest in an individual. Thats sort of me in a nut shell, lots of great ideas and creative ability, but lose focus pretty fast on most things. My brain chemistry is a little different from most because of this whole right-handed/left-handed bit as well. There is a clinical name for how my mind is set up, but of course I can not remember what it is. The only reason that I even know about it all is that a good friend of mine, who is set up with the same right/left weirdo anomaly that I have, was tested for some reason and told me all about it. Funny too because we are both very alike in many, many ways.

Anyway, I am right-handed but golf, bat, shoot (in hockey), and do most things like this left-handed. That is the whole thing of it. But here are a few shots that I have taken lately to illustrate different points. The interpretation is always up to the viewer, although some may strongly disagree, but this is the reality…we all walk around with our own ideas, and ways in which to see the world. My right hand…

Oh yea, the tattoo on my thumb was done in NYC in 2003 as a momento of the whole experience. I knew it wouldnt stay, stay on my thumb; and have had it gone over probably 4-5 times since. It is there but is fading for sure, as all tattoos do over time.

The larger tattoo over my wrist is three parts. The top 1/2 says “Nowhere to go” Meaning this moment is all we have so we may as well just relax into it, amoung many other meanings which I will not write about now. This is a Zen ideal. Along the side (right side of wrist) is a small lotus. If you dont get the lotus symbolism look it up. “At home in the muddy water” is a good analogy for life and the peaceful warrior. and on the bottom of my wrist is the Buddha’s eyes in a meditative like state. Blue highlights all over the entire piece. Anyway…

Abstract Painting with Light

Here are a few shots I took with my brother-in-law in the last while. I decided to throw up a few on flickr today so also thought I would throw up a few here as well. Check it out on flickr if you want to see the large versions. A lot of detail in some of them! Was a lot of fun and am looking forward to doing some more in the future with my little lights that I picked up…

Enjoy…

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G11 Shots

It hath been a fort night – or a few fort nights (around 7 months or so) – that I hath rambled in technologicia. So I am blogging again, whatever that means or symbolizes in this saga that is 1/2 public, 1/2 really unknown world that is cyber space or “technologicia.” Enough on that lets get to the shots….why we are all truly here to view this site at all, or at least it would seem it to myself for this entry.

These are just a couple shots from the G11 that I picked up just after Christmas. Nice that I am getting around to editing some of them now, I know, I know…but what can you do? Here they are….

Please check these out in flickr to see them a little larger…just up on the top right of the screen, yup, just up there…

All Photos Copyright Kyler Evans 2009-2010.

Been a Crazy Long Time!

It has been a while so I thought I would just throw up a few photos, just cause…Enjoy.

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Recent Processing

Here is a few more shots. Some are from a little while ago when I had borrowed a fisheye and played around with that. I found that it was such a great lens for some stuff and that not everything really does look cool through a fisheye lens. Sometimes you just got to go back to the good ol 24-60 Sigma 2.8 which seems to do the trick or just good ol 10-20 wideangle.

Tractor and Hay Bails

Rolls of Hay in the Sun

Poles, Trains, and Powerlines

Last 3 shots were all taken with a Nikon 10.5mm 2.8 fisheye. These next shots were taken on a tour of a building being reclaimed through the use of art (Check out: http://www.ruinandreclamation.blogspot.com/ for more info). Anyway, these two shots are from the basement. I am going to put something in the show, but the piece I started for the show will definitely not be ready for it and I am trying to finish off another piece I have been working on for a while now. No matter what I have said I will put something in and I can sense myself backing off for fear of what others may think of my weirdo “wannabe” paintings. I guess we will see…

The Good Ol Days

What is that doing in the Basement?

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The Suchness of Reality

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  I uploaded this painting a while ago and it just sits in the side bar in “drafts” cause I dont know why exactly I uploaded it so I thought I would use it first. This used to be my favorite painting (that I have painted) as it seems to convey a certain mood.

 

 I had moved to Kimberly B.C to do a practicum (2006) and was spending alot of time alone, writing and painting and just doing those kinds of things. I started to really witness the universal reality of sadness and the absolute connection with all around me. It was an interesting time in my life. I was overcome with intense feelings of sadness almost all the time for a period. It was a very transformational experience.

The whole thing of it is just the reality of existence, things fade in and out of existence and we are faced with life and death everywhere we look, it is only a matter of opening our hearts and our minds to what else is going on around us. We need only begin to move a little away from our egoic existence in order to begin to witness the world – and our own egos – in a different way. We are terrified as individuals to really embrace sadness, but sadness and emotional intensity does not have to be something to fear. As we look further intraspectively through contemplation,  meditation, and yoga (I also use art for meditative and reflective purposes) we the grip of the ego begins to loosen and provide a newfound freedom that we never thought was possible. I will quote the Heart Sutra here as it gives such a great description of this;

            O Shariputra, form is no other than emptiness,

            Emptiness no other than form;

            Form is precisely emptiness,

            Emptiness is precisely form.

            Sensation, perception, reaction, and consciousness are also like this.

            O Shariputra, all things are expressions of emptiness:

            Not born, not destroyed; not stained, not pure; neither waxing nor waning 

 

 

This is a great conversation between the Buddha and one of his students. I feel that the Sutra really speaks volumes to challenge what we think we know about everything around us. Another quote I did want to include and comment on is in regards to therapy (as a therapist). This quote is from Mark Epstein who is a Buddhist psychiatrist out of  New York:

 The traditional view of therapy as building up the self simply does not do justice to what we actually seek from the therapeutic process. We are looking for a way to feel more real, but we do not realize that to feel more real we have to push ourselves further into the unknown.

Such a great quote to give us a new perspective on things when we are looking at life and especially the internal verses the external reality. As we look outside of our “selves” and build our “selves” up more and more we begin distance from the consciousness that we are. To feel “more real” as Epstein says, one must begin to look at the structure of “self” itself, and deconstruct certain “fixations” and “illusions” through the process of what many others  call inquiry. As Maharshi states; “Self-inquiry is to focus the entire mind at its source. It is not, therefore, a case of one ‘I’ searching for another ‘I.’ 

 

So to start simply take up the contemplative practice of “who am I?” It is not just a thought “who am I?” It is a contemplation on “who am I?”  Not thinking about it, contemplating it. Similar to a Zen koan in which it is a question that may take the practitioner years to answer, or realize that there is no answer, the self-inquiry of “who am I?” is a long deconstructive process by which we can begin to know Self/consciousness. Enjoy…

 

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Last Nights Shots

Been a while since I have posted, or feels like it. Have quite a few shots in the mix these days. Here is the first set of a few night shots. I thought I better post these before I post some more cemetary night shots again (I know, I know, I vowed to not go back for a little while…a little while).

I know that a lot of people do not like the “streetlight orange/city light glow” but that is really what these shots are. I find that it brings an interesting look, or at least can. All in all I think that is what I enjoy about night photography, just letting the sensor saturate the light in different ways to get various effects.

Deer Staredown

Deer Staredown

Pedestrian Walkway

Pedestrian Walkway

Starlight Bridge

Starlight Bridge

I have found the propect of a B&W HDR very appealing these days, so here is another one…I like the effect, especially with night shots, the grain and all looks like a pencil drawing. Would love to hear some comments…

Starlight Bridge HDR B&W

Starlight Bridge HDR B&W

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