Been a Crazy Long Time!

It has been a while so I thought I would just throw up a few photos, just cause…Enjoy.

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Recent Processing

Here is a few more shots. Some are from a little while ago when I had borrowed a fisheye and played around with that. I found that it was such a great lens for some stuff and that not everything really does look cool through a fisheye lens. Sometimes you just got to go back to the good ol 24-60 Sigma 2.8 which seems to do the trick or just good ol 10-20 wideangle.

Tractor and Hay Bails

Rolls of Hay in the Sun

Poles, Trains, and Powerlines

Last 3 shots were all taken with a Nikon 10.5mm 2.8 fisheye. These next shots were taken on a tour of a building being reclaimed through the use of art (Check out: http://www.ruinandreclamation.blogspot.com/ for more info). Anyway, these two shots are from the basement. I am going to put something in the show, but the piece I started for the show will definitely not be ready for it and I am trying to finish off another piece I have been working on for a while now. No matter what I have said I will put something in and I can sense myself backing off for fear of what others may think of my weirdo “wannabe” paintings. I guess we will see…

The Good Ol Days

What is that doing in the Basement?

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More Cemetary Shots

Uneven Ground

Elevated Walkway

Thought that I would post a few shots from another cemetary shoot last week, or the week prior – I cant get my weeks straight. I love the marble in the one area I shot, so many reflections. Many more to come…maybe not just in the Cemetary though, right?

Tunnel Vision

Be a Lamp unto Yourself

This last one is an HDR. I have become addicted to HDR and the colors or effect that you can get with the software. I find that my shooting is maybe suffering a little though cause I just want to do everything with HDR. So I vow to slow down, although I already have…Hope you enjoy…

HDR

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The Suchness of Reality

'06
 

  I uploaded this painting a while ago and it just sits in the side bar in “drafts” cause I dont know why exactly I uploaded it so I thought I would use it first. This used to be my favorite painting (that I have painted) as it seems to convey a certain mood.

 

 I had moved to Kimberly B.C to do a practicum (2006) and was spending alot of time alone, writing and painting and just doing those kinds of things. I started to really witness the universal reality of sadness and the absolute connection with all around me. It was an interesting time in my life. I was overcome with intense feelings of sadness almost all the time for a period. It was a very transformational experience.

The whole thing of it is just the reality of existence, things fade in and out of existence and we are faced with life and death everywhere we look, it is only a matter of opening our hearts and our minds to what else is going on around us. We need only begin to move a little away from our egoic existence in order to begin to witness the world – and our own egos – in a different way. We are terrified as individuals to really embrace sadness, but sadness and emotional intensity does not have to be something to fear. As we look further intraspectively through contemplation,  meditation, and yoga (I also use art for meditative and reflective purposes) we the grip of the ego begins to loosen and provide a newfound freedom that we never thought was possible. I will quote the Heart Sutra here as it gives such a great description of this;

            O Shariputra, form is no other than emptiness,

            Emptiness no other than form;

            Form is precisely emptiness,

            Emptiness is precisely form.

            Sensation, perception, reaction, and consciousness are also like this.

            O Shariputra, all things are expressions of emptiness:

            Not born, not destroyed; not stained, not pure; neither waxing nor waning 

 

 

This is a great conversation between the Buddha and one of his students. I feel that the Sutra really speaks volumes to challenge what we think we know about everything around us. Another quote I did want to include and comment on is in regards to therapy (as a therapist). This quote is from Mark Epstein who is a Buddhist psychiatrist out of  New York:

 The traditional view of therapy as building up the self simply does not do justice to what we actually seek from the therapeutic process. We are looking for a way to feel more real, but we do not realize that to feel more real we have to push ourselves further into the unknown.

Such a great quote to give us a new perspective on things when we are looking at life and especially the internal verses the external reality. As we look outside of our “selves” and build our “selves” up more and more we begin distance from the consciousness that we are. To feel “more real” as Epstein says, one must begin to look at the structure of “self” itself, and deconstruct certain “fixations” and “illusions” through the process of what many others  call inquiry. As Maharshi states; “Self-inquiry is to focus the entire mind at its source. It is not, therefore, a case of one ‘I’ searching for another ‘I.’ 

 

So to start simply take up the contemplative practice of “who am I?” It is not just a thought “who am I?” It is a contemplation on “who am I?”  Not thinking about it, contemplating it. Similar to a Zen koan in which it is a question that may take the practitioner years to answer, or realize that there is no answer, the self-inquiry of “who am I?” is a long deconstructive process by which we can begin to know Self/consciousness. Enjoy…

 

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Last Nights Shots

Been a while since I have posted, or feels like it. Have quite a few shots in the mix these days. Here is the first set of a few night shots. I thought I better post these before I post some more cemetary night shots again (I know, I know, I vowed to not go back for a little while…a little while).

I know that a lot of people do not like the “streetlight orange/city light glow” but that is really what these shots are. I find that it brings an interesting look, or at least can. All in all I think that is what I enjoy about night photography, just letting the sensor saturate the light in different ways to get various effects.

Deer Staredown

Deer Staredown

Pedestrian Walkway

Pedestrian Walkway

Starlight Bridge

Starlight Bridge

I have found the propect of a B&W HDR very appealing these days, so here is another one…I like the effect, especially with night shots, the grain and all looks like a pencil drawing. Would love to hear some comments…

Starlight Bridge HDR B&W

Starlight Bridge HDR B&W

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Windy Night in the Cemetary

The wind was howling and roaring as we shot in the cemtary last night and our eyes played tricks on us. Seeing glowing lights in different areas of the area, we never did go far enough in to see what the light was. It seemed the longer we were there, the more the wind was working up the courage to ask us to leave. We took the hint and left after an hour or so. Some nice shots, or so I think. An interesting night and a good reason to go back there on a clear, non-gusting night.

So I Finally got back to the cemetary last night to shoot. I was also able to borrow a FiSh EyE LEnS to take the shots which was wonderful. I love the effect and the angles you can get with a fish eye, so wild. Here are a few shots, I only did one HDR which is the first shot in the series and remember you can always go onto flickr to view in a larger format:

Pathway to Darkness HDR

Cemetary Tree

Flowers and Headstones

FiSh EyE TrEe

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More HDR Remakes

It seems as if it has been a really long time since I have done this…anyway, I (as is seemingly looking like the case) am still going through old shots that I have not looked at in a while, and am finding that they are pretty decent (or at least some of them) and since I would shoot alot to try and get the various meanings of; apeture, shutter speed, metering, white balance, and all the other interesting jargon that goes along with digital photography and photography in general. I found I can turn some of the shots into HDR. Hdr rather.

Just a quick note, I tend to see the compositions, not the technicallity of it all. I am still learning how much I can actually do with a good lens and a camera that is for sure. And in all that I complain about processing shots, there is definitely an art to this as well, that I dont really know well. But we are all students in life arent we? Okay, so maybe not everyone.

Back to the original story here…So as I am looking through these shots I am noticing, again, that I tend not to look at shots on the computer after I go out t shoot, cause I dont like processing photos at all. It takes alot of time, and I dont have any luck with computers, at all, so I am stuck with a working space that takes anywhere from 2-10 mins to load a picture into photoshop or capture nx (which are the two programs I use the most, although photomatrix has been a fave for a while too). All that said it does not make for a “good time” processing, so I usually end up painting or going out to take more shots instead. Im into a more embodied style of creativity, I suppose (whatever that means??).  But here are a few that I have been chipping away on…

The first two are from a late night industrial adventure in Calgary with my brother-in-law, upon which, we witnessed a truck pull up and a transaction (a more embodied one) took place between two individuals a little ways away from where we were shooting. Although my brother-in-law disputes the type of transaction that took place, never-the-less, a transaction of sorts took place….

Industrial HDR 1

Industrial HDR 2

Here are another couple shots from that night as well…

Conventional Pespective

Perspective I like a Whole lot More

So I may as well share the last HDR (although Im sure that I will post many more in the near future). It is from Park Lake (which is more of a scummy pond than anything else when it comes to swimming) which is a favorite spot of mine, not only to shoot, but just to collect myself and have some introspective time, or to write. Enjoy…

 

Park Lake HDR 1

As Always, You can also view these full size on the flickr link on the right of the screen…

The Phoenix Rises Again…& Again…& Again…

My life, and I suppose most peoples lives in one fashion or another, is filled with change and death. Death is change, and change is death. I dont mean death only in the traditional “dead body” sense. No, no, no, I mean like each moment dies into another moment and is then reborn to the next, no holding on to anything, just dying. Each and every moment. Now while the phoenix itself, is of great symbolism in my life*, is maybe not nessisarily representative of the whole “die to each moment” part of rebirth; it seems to hold that symbolism for me. So as I think about the phoenix I can only say that it is a symbol which pops up in my life over and over and over, hence the name of the blog, website, and so on. So here is another visual piece that has come up today. It is a digital art sort of piece I guess, abstract, deep and dark. But I feel at home in the dark and in the light these days (there is always solice to be found in both darkness and light) which is a nice change. As Jung talked about the shadow being such a driving force in creativity, all of the red, orange, and black that I am drawn too, is also a testament to that. As Nietzsche states, “We have art so that we shall not die of reality.” And thus, reality, is what we all really run from isnt it? Look at all the paradoxes of life:

Paradox

 

As the globe is illuminated by a pale magenta glow,

A women is raped.

As the snowflakes float down to tickle my face,

A man has been beaten and killed.

As the unity of all universal beauty commences in my heart,

A child has been struck.

A dying breed, that continues on…

 

2006

 

I suppose it is quite a nihlistic view of the world, but none the less, it is a picture of expression for that time in my life and how I felt in the world. I would not say that I still feel the same, but I would not say that I dont either. So here is the piece I have been talking about, Enjoy…

 

phoenix

 

“Phoenix Taking Form” 2009

 

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*I have one tattooed on my left shoulder which was designed by a good friend (check out Rion-art link if you want to see his stuff).

Here is a self-portrait of my tattoo:

Phoenix Tat

Tattoo done by Mike Peace, Calgary, AB, (cant tell you the year, but it has been a while…)

Going Through Old Photos

Since it is so ridiculously cold I have decided to go through a bunch of old photos to see what I can come up with. I have been trying to make my way through all the shots on my external hard drive, but still have not gotten very far. I tend to take a bunch of shots, upload them, look at them quick, process one or two, and then leave the whole batch of em for some other day. I dont really like to process on the computer, it is way too slow (on my piece of shit computer) and I dont feel like I am doing anything (unlike when I am shooting, sculpting, painting, writing and what have you). So I have been doing nothing (editing photos) off and on today and last night, so here are a few.

These shots are from the Huge Garden in Summerland BC up in the Hill (I cant remember what it is called). They are also some of the first shots I had ever taken with my D40x in summer 2006. These were not shot in Raw cause I did not have much of a memory card back then, and was mostly using the “closeup” or “landscape” setting as I was still trying to learn, but some of them arnt half bad. Let me know what you think (and as always you can click on my flickr photo link to see them screen size and many more shots from the Summerland Garden of 2006):

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Grasshopper in a Flower Bed

 

Web of all Webs

 

Bee on the Move

 

Glowing Red

 

Detail

A Simple Koan

I have been doing a lot of responses to what my unconscious mind seems to put down on a canvas or paper or whatever I am using at the time. This is just the simple process of expressive arts and using art as a path in itself. Anyway, the piece iself is oil pastel, and is called

 

Fluffy Bunnies: Theres Heaven, Theres Hell, then there is the Balance of NOthing that lies in-between. 

Fluffy Bunnies: Theres Heaven, Theres Hell, then there is the Balance of NOthing in-between

So that is the piece itself, here is the response to it, note I tend to have many images of faces turn up in almost everyone of my paintings. The unconscious is an interesting thing.

A Simple Koan:

 

Faces,

            Faces,

                        Faces with no face at all,

 

To whom to come;

            To whom to fall,

                        For they have no names at all,

 

The Faces…

                                       So many Faces,

                        Eyes seem to call,

 

“nothing”…

                        “nothing at all.”

 

For it is only in my mind,

            That there is such a grind,

                        To create such a scheme,

                                    Or,

                                                Is it all just a dream?

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NOTE: Permission for the use of my images and Poetry is granted for personal websites and blogs (THAT MEANS NO ADDS AND NO SELLING OF ANY KIND) but must include a link back to this site and proper credit given to me for my work, Kyler Evans.

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